Running From The Heart

Scriptures: Joshua 24:14-15, 1 John 4:16-19

Choose to Believe

Choose for yourself this day whom you will serve. (Joshua 24:15)

I was moved to tears on finding this covenant in Rebecca’s journal, “I choose to believe. I choose to trust. I choose to love. I choose the everlasting life you purchased for me on the cross. I choose your plan. I choose the pure love of Jesus Christ.”

Experiencing God’s love being poured into her heart by the Holy Spirit, Rebecca believed that Jesus Christ was not only her Savior but also the Lord of her life. My prayers were answered when Rebecca chose to ask Jesus into her heart. I choose to believe that Rebecca was called home because her life and work on earth were complete. In my mother’s heart, it seems far too soon at 32, but I choose to believe it was God’s perfect time.

Selah

1 John 4:19 says, “We love because he first loved us.”

We love Him because He first loved us and, His perfect love will cast all fear from your heart. Of all the people and things, you love on earth, it is your love for Jesus that will carry you through life.

God is calling you today to choose to give your heart to Jesus Christ, or if you are already following Jesus, is there a part of your life that you need to surrender to Him?

Passing the Baton: 

Choose to believe and to trust God with your life.

Prayer: 

Lord Jesus, please forgive me, I’m sorry for all the wrong things I’ve done. I ask you to come into my heart and I choose to believe and to receive the everlasting life you purchased for me on the cross. Thank you for the love you have poured into my heart by your Holy Spirit. Please help me and strengthen my heart with your grace to believe, to surrender all to you and to trust you with my life. Amen.

Scriptures: Hebrews 12:1-2, Proverbs 3:5-6

Faith to Persevere 

And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us; fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. (Hebrews 12:1-2) 

What happens to your faith when you suffer? My daughter, Rebecca mourned deeply the unexpected death of her youngest brother Alex. Not just any death, but a suicide!

She poured out the ache of her broken heart onto her journal. “Where were you God? Why didn’t you help my brother? I just want my brother back and my family back to how it was! How can I put my faith in you now?” 

In the struggle, the athlete in Rebecca knew how to exercise her faith muscles. She ran to God in prayer and found solace in His presence. She wrote, “You are the author of my story and perfecter of my faith….if you’ve allowed my heart to be broken, it must be for an even greater eternal purpose.” 

Instead of growing bitter and hardened by her debilitating circumstances, she accepted the race marked out for her. She chose to let the Lord’s sweetness flow from her broken heart; in God’s providence, they were the last eight years of her life on Earth. 

Selah

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Your days may not always go as you hope, but in whatever you are facing. Train yourself like the athlete. Develop your faith muscles to be fighting fit and run with perseverance the race that God has planned for you. 

Passing the Baton: 

Accept the race that God has marked out for you. Whatever your faith is up against, learn to run freely in God’s love and call on your life. 

Prayer: 

Oh Heavenly Father, I don’t understand, but I thank you that you are the Author and the Perfecter of my faith.
I ask for strength and courage and grace, to persevere, and I welcome you, Holy Spirit, to fill me afresh today with all that I need to sustain me. I take this leap of faith and offer up my broken heart. Amen.   

Scriptures: John 3:16, Genesis 50:20

Rebecca’s Heart Cry 

You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. (Genesis 50:20) 

In a divine moment, God led Rebecca to this verse that became the cry of her heart and she lived the rest of her days for the “saving of many lives.”

Rebecca’s heart was broken when her brother, Alex, went home to Heaven at just seventeen years old. It was through this overwhelming suffering that she began to understand the depth of the suffering of God’s heart when His son Jesus was dying on the cross for her sins, and the sins of the whole world. How could a loving God allow such suffering? As she mourned her brother, she agonized over this question as she wrote,

“God’s love for them in Jesus Christ. God sometimes allows us to go through great suffering for an even greater eternal purpose…

My job is to bring heaven to earth through my prayers and my obedience…

My life must be living in response to what my father is doing, not as a reaction against the darkness…”

Rebecca had always had a heart for the “Lost,” but after Alex went home, she humbly laid her life down, her heart now consumed at the very thought of a young person dying before ever knowing of her prayers were answered when God opened the door for her to become the USA Director for Alpha Youth (Alpha is a course to introduce people to Jesus Christ).

Selah

For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

Suffering is a mystery! Sometimes grief and tears are all we have as we embrace the pain. Allow God to hold you at this time and he will bring healing to your heart. God is close to the broken-hearted.

Passing the Baton: 

Do you declare to love the Lord your God with all your heart and soul, to make him Lord of your time, investing your days wisely for Kingdom work? 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, please use my grief for your glory. May what the devil intended for evil be used in a mighty way for good. May you turn this dark night into a bright new day. Amen.  

Scriptures: Acts 1:8, 2 Corinthians 5:20

A Christian Lifestyle 

We are Christ’s ambassadors; God is making his appeal through us. 

We speak for Christ when we plead, “Come back to God!” (2 Corinthians 5:20)

Rebecca was humbled to be invited to write an article for a Christian magazine in which she explained how to live the Christian lifestyle. 

Jesus said, “As the Father has sent Me, I am sending you.” Spend a lot of time praying for your friends and family (we found lists of people she was praying for in her journal). Through prayer, seek God’s heart, wisdom and direction, for our battle takes place in the Heavenly realm. Be intentional about going into the community and building relationships. Listen and respect others, even if you disagree. Never judge but always love. Our job is to bring Jesus’ love into others’ lives; simply doing life and showing interest in others is an important step to allowing God’s Spirit to work through us. 

Dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength… And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. (Colossians 3:12 and 14) 

Selah

You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses. (Acts 1:8) 

Be an ambassador extraordinaire. It is not the length of days that profit you, but the days in His service, bringing glory to God. 

How can you share God’s love and make a difference for the people that God has placed in your life? 

Passing the Baton: 

Live a lifestyle that attracts people to Jesus. Beautiful are those who bring the “Good News.” 

Prayer: 

Heavenly Father, please give me your heart for the people you have and will bring into in my life. Help me to remember that I am your eyes, ears, hands and voice on Earth. Please help me to be your ambassador, sharing your love and kindness revealed in Jesus Christ. Amen. 

Scriptures: Isaiah 40:31, Romans 15:13

The Hope of Seeing Beyond 

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31)

Rebecca wrote in her journal, “God showed me Isaiah 40:28-31 on the day my 17-year-old brother Alex took his life, in 2005.” 

She was so brave when she spoke at her brother’s memorial service and, although faint with sorrow, I remember her sweet voice reading Isaiah 40:28-31. After the service, there was a profound moment, that gave me a glimmer of hope in the Lord, when several people shared they had seen an eagle circling the church.

In her journals, I found this letter that didn’t get sent but, in a way it has, because you are kindly reading a part of it! 

“I feel Isaiah 40:28-31 are from God to you, and offer you great HOPE. Hope is your firm assurance regarding things in your life that are unclear and unknown. No matter what you’re facing or have faced, put your hope in the Lord and, I know, He will give you more strength. 

God sent Christ to die for us and if we only ask, He will be with us for life. Jesus Christ is the only hope for this broken world. There is nothing else worth living for than to see Him glorified and His name lifted high in all the Earth. 

I hope and pray that these words will bring hope to your heart.”

Selah

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13) 

What does it mean to you, to trust God for your future? How can God use you to bring hope to others?

Passing the Baton: 

As you trust in Him, be filled with joy and peace and overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. 

Prayer: 

Dear Jesus! My hope comes from you; truly you are my rock and my salvation. Thank you for the power of your Holy Spirit to fill my heart with joy and peace as I trust in you. Thank you for helping me and strengthening me when I am weak. You are not only my friend who helps me, but you are my only hope. Amen. 

Scriptures: Genesis 41:16, John 11:25-26

Rebecca’s Dream 

God can tell you what it means and set you at ease. (Genesis 41:16, NLT)

The verse above refers to a dream that Pharaoh had about the future, which came true. God uses dreams throughout the Bible to speak to His people.

Sometimes God can speak to us through our dreams today.

In our darkest hours, we received an invitation from our dear friends, who not only opened their hearts to our overwhelming grief, but also invited us to their peaceful home in Mexico. 

Watching a beautiful sunset, Rebecca’s brother Ben pointed out seven wild horses walking in a line along the golden beach. It took my breath away because I sensed it had something to do with Rebecca and not just because she loved horses. 

On returning to the US, I read these words in one of Rebecca’s journals. 

I dreamt last night that I owned a horse I loved, and in my dream, I was riding my horse with about seven others and I was the last one in the line. 

Through the power of the resurrection of Jesus Christ and in His providence, I sensed God comforting me that Rebecca is safely home with Him and her brother Alex! A friend later shared her own dream of Rebecca riding a horse in heaven! I am undone! 

Selah

I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this? (John 11:25-26, NLT) 

Every so often, God gives us a glimpse of the bigger picture. Yes! it’s a mystery, but our mysteries are miraculously answered in the unmatched name of Jesus. 

Do you fear death and, if so, what conclusion have you reached in light of the scriptures above?

Passing the Baton: 

Keep your heart open to God’s voice. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that my life with you will go on forever. Thank you that the source of all joy is being in your presence both now and always. Amen.

Scriptures: Nehemiah 8:10, Psalms 16:11

Joy

The joy of the Lord is your strength. (Nehemiah 8:10)

Like warming up before a race, Rebecca knew how critical it was to spend time with Jesus before the start of her day. The Lord was the source of her joy, even when her soul was downcast.

Through reading her Bible, worship and thanksgiving she encouraged her soul and found His joy.

Rebecca’s journals reflect the joy that flows from sweet fellowship 

with Jesus Christ. “Joy is the fruit of being loved by God.
And, from being rooted in His gracious love, joy flows. 

I’m here to show His glory in my life. Joy, peace and love take their place in my heart; I am thankful and eternally grateful for this, for I see Jesus himself is my JOY.”

Even in the midst of heartbreak, Rebecca experienced moments of joy that she knew to be a gift from God.

On a mother-daughter shopping outing, while Rebecca was picking out a gift for a friend, I found myself rather taken by a basket full of polished shiny stones. Each one had an inspiring word engraved into it. I asked Rebecca to choose a stone that could be my gift to her. Rebecca chose Joy!

It took my breath away because we had all been very tearful that morning, missing our Alex. I could not believe she would choose joy above everything else. Like many times before, I saw she was a willing, broken vessel. She allowed Jesus to pour His wisdom and grace gently through to me. Her beautiful eyes and smile said it all; she was encouraging me to choose joy as well. 

Selah

You will fill me with joy in your presence. (Psalm 16:11) 

Jesus Christ is the source of all joy. The joy that God gives is available in His presence, even in the midst of pain, sorrow and grief. In choosing joy you will glorify God by revealing the beauty of Jesus Christ in your life. Others will have a glimpse into your life and wonder, how do they live so joyfully and gracefully even in the face of great suffering? You can be a walking testament to the healing and restoring power of Jesus Christ.

Passing the Baton: 

Choose Joy today. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the gift of joy. Please help me to glorify Jesus by choosing joy no matter the circumstances. Amen.

Scriptures: Philippians 4:8, Romans 12:2

Disciplined Thinking 

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8, NLT)

“Keep your eyes focused on what is right and look straight ahead to what is good. Pay attention to God’s word and don’t ever forget His word. Keep it always in your mind. This is the key to life. Be careful what you think about because your thoughts run your life.”

In the dark days after Alex went home, I searched for God but my thinking was very confused. Although Rebecca was grieving herself, I remember the sweetness of her love and the comfort of her words and prayers, as we wept together. She encouraged me to fix my thoughts on God’s promises and the hope we have for the future, reminding me to see the bigger picture and often saying; “I wonder what Alex is doing now?”

Her words of truth touched my aching heart in a profound way and somewhere in my soul, deep was calling to deep, bringing a glimmer of hope. Yes! “What was my Alex doing?”

As an athlete, Rebecca learned how important it was to keep her mind focused on her race. In the storms of life, you may well feel pain and your thinking becomes confused.

In the storms of her life, Rebecca held on to the promises of God. She trusted God’s word to the very core of her being and with her whole heart she worshiped the God of her salvation, as she fixed her thoughts on what is true and worthy of praise.

Selah

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. (Romans 12:2) 

Train yourself to be disciplined in your thinking. Don’t let your thoughts run wild but believe the truth of God’s word every day of your life. Renew your mind with the word of God, hold fast to what is true, resist the lies of the devil and he will flee from you. 

What negative thought patterns do you need to change today?

Passing the Baton: 

Be intentional, hold fast to what is true and resist all negative thoughts. Think about whatever is pure and lovely and beautiful and praiseworthy… 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, my feelings scream out that I’m unworthy, Oh God! please give me a disciplined mind to refuse these lies and give me wisdom, give me everything. When I look into myself I am so weak, but I choose to keep looking at God’s face. I need more of God’s Holy Spirit to strengthen me. Amen.

Scriptures: Psalms 90:12, Psalms 139:16

Wisdom 

Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12)

At the start of each new day, Rebecca ran to the heart of God. Her priority was,

“To love Him first and foremost. To put Him first above anything else.”

Rebecca prayed each day for wisdom and understanding to make the most of every opportunity.

No one knows when our time is up, and Alex going home shocked Rebecca into the realities of Heaven. It took her to a deep place of understanding her days in the context of eternity. It pushed her to understand the eternal value of her decisions.

Matthew 16:27 says, For the Son of Man is going to come in His Father’s glory with His angels, and then He will reward each person according to what they have done.

We all live for something. But it is not wisdom if that something is not God. Wisdom teaches us that our life is a mist, and every breath that we breathe should be to please God.

“The first way to please God is to love Him with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your strength. This is wisdom.”

When bad things happen, we might feel like running away, but Rebecca learned that through these times, the wise thing to do is to run to God. 

“God has our days numbered… they are His, God is sovereign. The key is to trust God.”

Selah

Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. (Psalm 139:16, NLT) 

Each day is a gift from God and may hold a surprise. Don’t be afraid to face the uncertainties of each day. Whether happy or sad, know that God is merciful, redemptive and does not make mistakes. He is your past, He is your future and He is with you today. Develop a wise heart by keeping the first priority first and steward your time, your gifts and your opportunities for the glory of God.

Passing the Baton: 

Embrace the eternal importance of your decisions. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, teach me your wisdom today in how to live to bring glory to your name. Thank you that this day is already written in your book, and please help me to choose to walk today in all the things you have prepared for me. Amen. 

Scriptures: John 14:16-17, Acts 1:8, 1 Corinthians 6:19, Ephesians 5:18

The Holy Spirit 

And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever, the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. (John 14:16-17, NKJV)

Through her life, Rebecca learned more and more to live a life that depended on the Holy Spirit to guide and help her on the path God planned for her. Rebecca wrote in her journal,

“Dear Father, can I please be someone that your Holy Spirit rests on and in. As I carry God’s Holy Spirit, you are my strength, I am not alone, you are my helper, and you are with me and for me. I ask that you help me to be led by your Spirit and not by my flesh. Amen.

A Precious gift is the presence of the Holy Spirit in our life. He is a sweet and rich and deep treasure.

The fruit of the Holy Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I want all of these!”

Selah

You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses. (Acts 1:8) 

Your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. (1 Corinthians 6:19) 

The most important relationship in your life is with God. God never intended that you try and follow Jesus on your own – there is too much against you. When you received Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, the Holy Spirit came to live in your heart. He will guide you and give you the strength to follow Christ and be a witness for Him.

Be filled with the Holy Spirit. Ephesians 5:18 means we can regularly ask God to fill us afresh with the Holy Spirit. 

What are the things that are stopping you from asking the Holy Spirit to fill you afresh today? 

Passing the Baton: 

Pray for God’s help, and more help, to be desperate for God’s presence in your life. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, please fill me with your Holy Spirit today that I may love what you love and do what you would do. Breathe on me, breath of God; until I am totally yielded to you, until this Earthly part of me glows with your divine fire, until this life that I now live is not mine but yours. In Jesus name, I come to you in prayer and worship. Amen.

Scriptures: Hebrews 12:1, Matthew 5:14-16

Travel Light 

Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. (Hebrews 12:1)

“This is our time to show the world who Jesus Christ is, to be His hands and feet, to shine light and bring hope and healing to the world… Running a great race-finish with great faith!

You’re here to be light, bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept.

It should be a natural outflowing of our walk/relationship with God. Travel light to be a traveling light.”

Rebecca learned how to throw off everything that might hinder people from seeing the light of Jesus in her life. 

“In this season God has been teaching me to: 

• Leave behind fear and have a fresh perspective of God’s love for me; 

• Give Him my worries and to trust Him with all my heart; 

• Throw off discouragement and persevere in the race God has set for me; 

• Take every impure thought captive, live a pure life set apart for God – Jesus is coming for a spotless bride; 

• Guard against prideful thoughts that can creep in, I ask God to keep me humble each day; and forgive as Jesus has forgiven me.” 

A few of many kind words received about our precious Rebecca. 

“It was as if we could all see an angelic halo around her – how she lived spoke volumes about her faith.” 

Selah

You are the light of the world… Let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in Heaven. (Matthew 5:14,16) 

Watch out for the light-dimming, love-quenching thoughts and actions that weigh you down and prevent you from shining brightly for the glory of God. Throw off the hindrances and the sins that can so easily entangle and distract you from God’s plan for your life. 

Think of your life as a journey to Heaven – what are you carrying that is weighing you down? 

Passing the Baton: 

Travel light; be a traveling light. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, please help me to travel light by throwing off the things that quench your love and dim your light within me. Father, please help me to share your love and light with those who are in darkness and in need. Amen.

Scripture: Psalms 139:14-16

Unique 

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14)

“How do I see creation? God speaks through everything he has made… 

Today Beautiful, large snowflakes fall slowly, softly, and peacefully to the ground. Each one unique…”

In that quiet and reflective place, Rebecca heard the gentle whisper of the Holy Spirit.

“I am also God’s workmanship. He created me; He loves me and approves of me. He loves me unconditionally and wholeheartedly and continually. God speaks through everything he has made.

I am His masterpiece, with a unique call!”

Rebecca responded to God’s call on her life. She understood and trusted that through the circumstances of her life, God was preparing and training her to live out her calling. 

God’s work and calling on everyone’s life is unique and, because of this, it makes no sense to compare oneself with anyone else. No two snowflakes are alike, and neither are we. Rebecca wrote, 

“I can never live someone else’s life, only mine.

God, in your calling on my life, help me accept the things I cannot change and give me courage to change the things I can.” 

Although she often felt inadequate, Rebecca had a gift to speak in public. God graciously opened the door for invitations to share across the US and around the world. She spoke courageously about Jesus and she brought comfort and encouragement, especially challenging the youth to give their hearts and to run for Jesus. 

Selah

Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:16) 

God created each of us for a specific time and purpose and none of us know when the days ordained for us will end. Be open to the guidance of the Holy Spirit until your unique calling becomes the most important thing in your life. Your legacy will have an impact for those who come after you. 

What is holding you back from finding and living for God’s unique call on your life? 

Passing the Baton: 

Be thankful for the unique gifts that God has given to you and, by His grace, use them with wisdom and courage. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for creating me, for making me unique and for loving me just as I am. Please lead me to find the special purpose you have for my life and help me to be content in living to please you. Amen.

Scriptures: Proverbs 17:7, John 15:13-14

Friendship 

A friend loves at all times. (Proverbs 17:17)

“My friends and family are precious to me, I am thankful and eternally grateful for them…


When my friends meet me, I want them to meet Jesus! I see that my friends are a gift from God and loving them is a form of worship unto the Lord.” 

Rebecca loved her friends! The lovely thing about her friendships was that they were not just about her but about allowing the Holy Spirit to touch people through her. Judging by the hundreds of letters received after she went home, her friends were inspired and encouraged by their sweet friendship with Rebecca.

Two of Rebecca’s friends wrote,

“Rebecca’s faith, kindness and strength, in the midst of her own grief, impressed me so much that I renewed my faith.”

“Not many people have the talent to make you feel that you are more important to them than themselves. Rebecca had it! It made my day when I saw her. Thank you, Lord, for the gift of Rebecca’s friendship.”

It moved me to tears to find lists of friends and family in her journals that were loved and prayed for! Rebecca was a very loyal friend.

Selah

Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. (John 15:13-14) 

The Holy Spirit working in your life will guide you in how to become a loyal and faithful friend. 

If you have never met Jesus Christ and would like to have a relationship with the perfect friend, as your Savior, I invite you to say this prayer to invite Him into your heart: 

Lord Jesus, please forgive me, have mercy on me, I’m sorry for all the wrong things I have done. I ask you to come into my heart and I choose to believe and to receive the everlasting life you purchased for me on the cross. Please fill my heart with your pure love, to follow you. Amen. 

P.S. This is a life-changing step. Tell someone!

If you do know Jesus as your friend, let your sweet friendships be a fragrant offering unto Him. You are truly blessed to be a blessing.

Passing the Baton: 

When your friends meet you, may they meet Jesus. 

Prayer: 

Pray for 3 friends: Dear God, I pray for [insert your friend’s name] and please give me a way to bless them today. Amen. 

Scriptures: Deuteronomy 33:27, Isaiah 41:10

Fall into His Arms 

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (Deuteronomy 33:27)

Rebecca was on a bike ride with her friends through Manhattan when her brakes suddenly gave out. When the kind young man she was with, saw her struggling to keep control of her bike, he caught her in his arms, making a joke about her falling for him. Rebecca thanked the Lord she wasn’t hurt and saw the funny side of it. On reflection, she felt God spoke to her heart that He was always there for her and that she was safe in His mercy and protection. 

Rebecca wrote, 

“My life is in your hands and Lord I will trust you, you are sovereign. As we step forward, God is above us and beneath our feet, He has already prepared the way, God’s love is so deep, it’s beyond our comprehension. It wasn’t until I surrendered my life, and received God’s love, that I finally became free.” 

Rebecca would go to her favorite place each morning for quiet time with God. She would settle into her a cozy chair with her Bible, journal and a green tea, and seek God by reading His love letter to her and listening for His gentle whispers. She sensed the balm of Jesus’ peace and His gift of grace to strengthen her for the day.

Selah

Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. (Isaiah 41:10, NLT) 

In the midst of life’s troubles, when you are feeling overwhelmed, remember that God holds everything together by the power of His word. Give to God your fears and allow the Holy Spirit to fill your heart with God’s love and comfort. He will strengthen and guide you with every step and underneath you are His everlasting arms. 

What is stopping you from resting in God’s arms today? What are the worries or fears that you need to hand over to Him?

Passing the Baton: 

Trust God and give all fear and discouragement over to Him. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, God of all comfort, thank you that no matter what I go through you are with me. Thank you for giving me your Holy Spirit to be my comforter and helper. I give to you my concern/s about [name exactly what it is and the feeling you have about the concern/s e.g. fear, guilt etc.] Thank you for holding me and supporting me. I trust in you with all my heart and not in my own understanding. Amen.

Scriptures: 1 John 3:1, Psalms 17:8

The Father’s Love 

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! (1 John 3:1)

“Though I have not seen Him, my heart knows Him. The Holy Spirit has revealed the Father’s heart. 

God is a good, good father all the time! I am thankful and blessed. It is an honor to have such a loving Heavenly Father who loves and trusts me. 

I’m thankful and blessed for the many new things revealed to my heart. Everyone is valued; everyone is loved by their heavenly Father. I seem to be able to see things through my Father’s eyes. As I look into their eyes I have compassion to see what they’re going through and feel it with them. I want to be a source of hope when others can’t find hope.” 

Rebecca was blessed to have an earthly father who loved and adored her and was always there for her. 

Rebecca was the favorite to win the London 800m school’s championship, but during the race a competitor pushed her to the ground. In an instant, her Dad ran to help her. Lifting her up in his arms, she was rushed to hospital in an ambulance.

She had broken several ribs and was badly bruised but, even in her great pain, our sweet Rebecca forgave the competitor. After recovering, she trained even harder and went on to become state champion.

We cherish the card that Rebecca hand painted, “Thank you, Dad, for being my rock, and my hero, I’m proud to be your daughter.”

Selah

Keep me as the apple of your eye. (Psalm 17:8) 

The wonder of the Father’s love for us is overwhelming. He has such an interest in each of us. His word reveals that our relationship with Him is the richest of all relationships. 

The relationship with your earthly father may be difficult but you have a Father in Heaven who loves you unconditionally and has promised to never leave you. 

In what ways have you experienced the pure love that your Heavenly Father has lavished on you?

Passing the Baton: 

Receive the gift of faith, and live in the truth of your Heavenly Father’s perfect love for you. 

Prayer: 

My dear Heavenly Father, thank you for your unconditional and everlasting love for me. Thank you that I am the apple of your eye and that you have forgiven my sins. Please help me to live in the truth of your love for me. I choose to trust and love you with all my heart. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Scriptures: Psalms 46:10, Luke 5:16

Solitude 

Be still and know I am God. (Psalm 46:10)

Rebecca was always dipping into the book of Psalms and many of them are written out and underlined in her journals. Psalm 46:10 was one of her favorites and she practiced the discipline of solitude in order to be still and hear the divine whispers.

Rebecca had learned the difference between loneliness and solitude and she wrote, 

“Celebrate the discipline of solitude. 

Solitude leads to peace whereas loneliness leads to anxiety. 

Solitude is enjoyable but loneliness is unpleasant.” 

She was learning not to rush in and out of God’s presence; training herself to listen to the divine whispers through prayer and Bible study. 

“I am thankful for this season: “He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion.” He has pruned the areas of my heart that have been proud and deceived, misled, selfish, etc. There is a new peace in my heart and it will keep growing, I understand the magnitude of the sacrifice that has been made for me. God has been speaking to me this whole time and I missed so much.”

As an athlete, Rebecca would find a quiet place to be alone before a race. It was in the quietness that she thought through her tactics and gathered courage and strength for what was ahead. 

Selah

Jesus often withdrew…for prayer. (Luke 5:16,NLT) 

In the hustle and bustle, it’s all too easy to get distracted with the worries and noise of life. The enemy of your soul wants to rob you from hearing the gentle divine whispers… God is always with you; give yourself times of quietness to receive His comfort, peace and strength. 

What are the distractions that stop you from intentionally spending regular quiet time with the Lord?

Passing the Baton: 

Be intentional about spending regular time to be quiet with the Lord and to listen to the gentle divine whispers of the Holy Spirit. 

Rebecca’s Prayer: 

Dear Lord, thank you that you teach me to come to you, to learn about being still, the secret of solitude. Thank you that you teach me that I don’t have to strive or do anything in my strength. Please help me to take time to turn off the noise in my life and to come aside to receive the comfort and strength that only you can provide. Thank you that in quietness and trusting in you, there is great peace. Amen.

Scriptures: Jeremiah 29:11, Isaiah 30:15

Purpose 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

“I want to see the purpose of God in my generation and live my life for something that will last forever…” 

These powerful words were Rebecca’s heart cry and she came to see that God’s plans and purpose for her could only be learned through affliction and a broken heart. 

“I am seeing new things, perhaps the struggle, this illness, has helped me see things in a new way, and that is a positive outcome. I would never have understood the depths of purpose, if God had not brought me through the afflictions of my life. Bringing me to see the reality of surrendering my plans, seeing they are not always the best direction for me. That God is in control. Many things have happened that are out of my control, but through it all I see the purpose of God for my life through my broken heart. If God chose to break my heart I can thank him to bring His purpose through my broken heart.

In quietness and trust is my strength. I thought I understood but in my weakness and brokenness I have learned that God is my strength and He is my hope.”

Rebecca took her pain and questions to God and her prayers were full of faith as she trusted in the promise of God’s word.

“Dear Lord, thank you for your perfect plans, your perfect timing, your perfect promises.


I trust you my God and savior… I want to follow you with my whole heart. Amen.” 

Selah

In quietness and trust is your strength. (Isaiah 30:15) 

God has a purpose and a plan for your life and shapes you through your life’s journey. The family you were born into, your gifts, your experiences, the Bible, godly council and prayer are all ways the Lord guides you into His purpose and plan for your life. Quietness and trusting in God is the key to your strength. He will give you all that you need for the race He has planned for you. 

Passing the Baton: 

With a confident step, live your life for something that will last forever. 

Prayer: 

Dear God, thank you for the plans you have for me. Please fill me with the knowledge of your will and give me the courage to go your way and not the way of the world. Amen. 

Scriptures: 1 Timothy 6:12, Isaiah 45:3

Struggles 

Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called… (1 Timothy 6:12)

“I’m struggling! It’s an excruciating moment to be faced with your own darkness. I take responsibility and repent for all the wrong
I’ve done, my heart has broken for the hurt I have caused God, countless wrong choices, temptations. There is a lot I regret that I must and am handing over to God. The process continues…

God gives us each a cup we must drink and I cannot compare myself and will not compare myself with another. All I know is what I’ve seen and experienced and that has helped me better understand Christ’s love for me and for every precious soul. Again, I am humbled. The victory is won, the battle is the Lord’s and I stand for Him to see His Kingdom come…”

Rebecca would be the first to say that God had appointed her seasons of struggle for her to go deeper in Him and to learn more about herself. 

During times of struggle, Rebecca would be inspired by the beauty of God’s creation. She loved butterflies and saw how the struggle a butterfly has to break free of its chrysalis, prepared it for the journey ahead. 

Rebecca writes about butterfly migrations. 

“If the butterflies are taken off course, they find their way back to the right track/path/ direction. God help me to choose the path of wisdom!”

Selah

I will give you treasures hidden in the darkness – secret riches. I will do this so you may know that I am the Lord… the one who calls you by name. (Isaiah 45:3, NLT) 

Struggles are a normal part of a Christians walk and through them, God is growing your faith. In your own dark storms, search out the treasures God has for you through your struggles, not because of your circumstances but in spite of them. You may have wandered off the path but God is always there to carry you back. 

What have you, or what are you, learning through your struggles? 

Passing the Baton: 

Be strong and run with courage! Don’t get discouraged, God is with you every step of the way. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord Jesus, please hear my prayer for help! I’m struggling with [tell God exactly you’re your struggling with]. [If you need to, ask God to forgive you for anything you’ve done to hurt Him]. Please help and strengthen me to trust you and to fight the good fight of faith. Thank you for loving me and for the treasures you have promised to give me in the darkness. Amen. 

Scriptures: Lamentations 3:23, Isaiah 41:13

It’s a New Day 

Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. (Lamentations 3:23, NLT)

“It’s a new day. I have: new eyes, new mind, new heart, new ears, new desires…new manna each day, new mercies every single morning.”

Rebecca’s inner strength shines through her words. The glow of courage as she went from strength to strength, came at great cost after walking through a dark, wintry season of illness. The great sadness of grief and loss, her very busy life and her heart to serve others had left her physically and emotionally exhausted. 

“I pressed fast forward, so restless after Alex went home, almost couldn’t stop to pause, suffering everywhere. I pray for the lost souls. The reality I once knew is suddenly something different, keep focused on God and keep praying. I will trust in who God says He is, rather than who I think He is.” 

Rebecca memorized scripture and hid God’s word in her heart as a young girl. She was so grateful for the powerful word of God that was now sustaining her in this dark season. The Holy Spirit comforted her grieving heart and reminded her of God’s promises.

Selah

I hold you by your right hand – I, the Lord your God. And I say to you, “Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.” (Isaiah 41:13, NLT) 

For reasons only known to God, sometimes He takes us on a spiritual journey through painful seasons. Within the depth of the dark clouds, He is still close. Look for His treasures in the darkness and you will find them, as sure as the sunrise. His precious truth will bring light to your path and faith will rise and strengthen your heart. Trust that God will hold you no matter what! 

Has pain, grief, loss, exhaustion, fear, doubt, loneliness or something else settled over you? If it has, share what you’re going through with someone you trust, without delay. 

Passing the Baton: 

Run with courage in the midst of the darkness and seek out the truth in God’s word. 

Rebecca’s Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, I cry to you for help. Bring afresh to my heart your great love for me and let your grace carry me in this dark season. Thank you for your faithfulness and your new mercies offered to me each morning. Help me to find the treasures you have for me each day. Amen.

Scripture: Ephesians 6:2-3

Honoring Your Parents 

Honor your father and mother. (Ephesians 6:2)

“Mum and Dad, thank you for your constant love and confidence in me, your encouragement and prayers just blow me away. I love you both very much and anything I’ve ever achieved is because of you and for you…” A portion of Rebecca’s 21st Birthday speech that fell out of one of her journals.

Rebecca’s 21st birthday party was a sparkling celebration. She not only shone in her own sweet way, gentle and humble, she glorified God by honoring us, with her beautiful expression of love and gratitude. I was moved to tears, at Rebecca’s heartfelt devotion, not only to us but to her Heavenly Father. She was a precious jewel in His crown and my darling daughter who I miss so much. 

God created families to reflect His glory. Of course, all families have brief or seeming endless periods of struggle, but in whatever you are facing, hold on to God’s command to honor your parents. When we honor our parents and love one another, we bring glory to God and welcome His presence into our family. We do not honor our parents because they deserve it; we honor them to glorify God by revealing His heart and plan for families. 

I am thankful and blessed for the earthly family that God has given to me. I’m humbled and broken by the love I feel manifest through my family. I see Jesus’ sacrifice and I want to honor Him… I know who I am, I am a sinner saved by grace.

Selah

Honor your father and mother – which is the first commandment with a promise – so that it may go well with you. (Ephesians 6:2-3) 

Honor your parents. Express gratitude, make time for them, be considerate, let them into your life, speak kindly, forgive them and pray for them. These are just a few of many sweet and kind ways you can honor your parents. 

What are some of the ways you can honor your father and mother? 

Passing the Baton: 

Show your love for the Lord in the way you love and honor your parents. 

Rebecca’s Prayer: 

Dear Father God, please help me to live in pure obedience to you, full of your grace and truth. Please help me to glorify you by honoring my parents. I want to reveal your heart and plan for families. Thank you for your example in demonstrating such love in dying for me while I was still a sinner. Amen.

Scriptures: Ephesians 4:32, Colossians 3:12-13

To Love is to be Vulnerable 

Be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you. (Ephesians 4:32, NKJV)

On her 21st birthday, Rebecca received a beautiful gift of pearls. She loved them so very much, not only because they were beautiful but also because they had been given to her by her Dad. A pearl is formed after an oyster opens up and a grain of sand embeds itself, and becomes uncomfortable inside its shell. The oyster embraces the object by covering it with many translucent layers. Over time a beautiful pearl is formed.

C.S. Lewis quotes are written throughout Rebecca’s journals. 

“Jesus is the pearl of great price.” 

“We are not necessarily doubting that God
 will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” C.S. Lewis. I saw this and it made me cry.’


To love is to risk EVERYTHING.


I’d rather love and risk than never feel. If
 I guarded my heart forever and never let another person in, it would be a dead life. Love is a choice.


Love is surrender.


Love is a fight.


I choose to love because love is FREEDOM.” 

In her vulnerability, Rebecca found God’s grace in new and deeper ways. She discovered a new freedom, praying and asking God to use her broken heart for His glory. God developed in her a tender heart that reached out and touched many people. She wrote, “No attack, no pearl.”

Selah

As God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. (Colossians 3:12-13) 

God has created us to receive His love and to love Him in return and to love others. Because you have received God’s love, you can be vulnerable as you love. 

What is stopping you from being vulnerable in your love? 

Passing the Baton: 

Be vulnerable as you love and allow God to form in you a tender heart. 

Prayer: 

Heavenly Father, please help me to love other people even though it will make me vulnerable. And when people hurt me, help me to forgive them and to allow your love to heal my heart. Amen. 

Scriptures: Isaiah 64:8, Jeremiah 18:6

The Divine Potter 

O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, and you are the potter. We all are formed by your hand. (Isaiah 64:8, NLT)

When Rebecca was a little girl, she loved to listen to her Dad tell her the stories from the Old Testament. They spoke to her sweet heart, and her trust in God’s promises gave her strength for the days ahead. 

She placed her life in the divine potter’s hands and allowed Him to make something beautiful out of the furnace of her trials. Rebecca wrote,

“I see the trials in my life as tests from God. That God is in control! I’m not!” 

One catastrophic trial was that suddenly and tragically, at the age of 24, Rebecca was told she was slowly losing her sight! She wrote, 

“O God! Let your hand mold me. I thank you that you are enough light for each step, even though I don’t understand this. But I do understand the new things you have allowed me to see, one of which is, I am a great sinner and that Christ is a great savior. You know me best! You know what is best! I trust you with my life!” 

I watched Rebecca handle this unbelievable news with such grace, strength and dignity. She had a profound trust in God, no matter what she faced; it was always in her heart to give God the glory. 

We believed with Rebecca, that one day God would heal her eyes.

Selah

As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in mine. (Jeremiah 18:6, NLT) 

Never, ever, give up! Instead of saying, “I can’t believe that God would allow this,” surrender your life into the hands of the divine potter. God is sovereign and He is in control. Whatever you are facing, you have the power to choose which direction your heart will take. Allow God to mold your life for something that will last forever and ever, to bring Him all the glory. 

What do you need to surrender to the divine potter? 

Passing the Baton: 

Even when you face disappointment or discouragement, run with grace, strength, beauty and dignity. Allow God to make something beautiful out of the furnace of your trials. He never let’s go of you. 

Rebecca’s Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, I place my life in your hands and I ask that you would mold and make my heart sensitive to you – bend me! I ask for wisdom to know and accomplish the work you want me to do and to glorify your unmatched name through my life. Amen.

Scriptures: Ecclesiastes 3:11, Romans 8:28

Beautiful  

He has made everything beautiful in its time… (Ecclesiastes 3:11)

Rebecca’s heart was touched by the truth of this verse and she wrote it in the shape of a heart in her journal and on the cards, she sent out. It was a truth she trusted and rested her life on. 

Gentle reminders from Rebecca’s journal:

“God’s timing is perfect! This is something easy to see, though difficult to understand. But, sometimes I wonder why it has taken so long for my eyes to open to see the way God works.” 

“He controls time and is always on time. He is working in the world in how things happen.” 

“There is a lot I am handing over to God. Although my heart has broken and life is hard, His love is sweet. It’s His love that makes us and everything beautiful! God’s timing is perfect and I know God will give beauty for ashes. Beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news.” 

As I read Rebecca’s words, I am missing her so much, but I do believe that her Father in Heaven called her home in His perfect timing. 

I am humbled that you are reading this devotional and my prayer is that beauty will continue to rise up out of the ashes as you let Christ’s light shine through you.

Selah

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28) 

If you’ve committed your life to Christ, God really does work “in all things” for you. God is in control of your circumstances and your life is in His hands, even when things happen that don’t make any sense. In His providence, He is working ‘in all things’ to accomplish His eternal plan and purpose. 

God has a plan for your life, and He is working to reveal more of Christ in and through you. Through the hard times and in the struggle, let hope arise and the beauty of Christ will shine through you. 

How can you let the beauty of Christ shine through you? 

Passing the Baton: 

Trust God to make all things beautiful in His time. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, I’m sorry for the times I forget you are in control and that you hold all things in your powerful hand for my good and for your glory. Amen.

Scriptures: 1 Corinthians 10:13, Titus 2:11-12, 2 Corinthians 10:5

Temptations  

The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure. (1 Corinthians 10:13, NLT)

“Today I am wrestling with many things…I realize this is a fight of my faith… work at denying temptations… I want to honor God with my life. One thing I am grateful for is I am learning to fight against the lies from the enemy. I start with thanksgiving and ask the Holy Spirit to help me. I must quiet my mind, focus on God and be open to His voice. I will also read and meditate on His word. 

I was reminded of a vision God gave me, it was of a person with their arms raised going through the finish line I found that encouraging… The key is to trust and obey, the battle is won…” 

The runner in Rebecca went into battle every day, fighting temptations in order to keep strong and fit for the race of life. She kept her mind on the word of God, remembering to pray, which is a key. By God’s grace she fought the temptations, refusing to allow them to take her out of the race. It became her lifestyle. She wrote,

“I want to be a fighter!” 

Rebecca was a fighter and she lived a lifestyle that caused others to wonder and be inspired to follow Christ as she did.

Selah

For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say, “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this world. (Titus 2:11-12) 

Temptation starts in the mind and it only becomes a sin if you allow the enemy, and your own sinful desires, to entice you into wrong thoughts and action. The Bible teaches us to take our thoughts captive so that they do not produce sinful behavior. 

Keep alert and keep a Christ centered lifestyle. Pray to God for strength, by the Holy Spirit, to be self-controlled to say, ‘No!’ to things that are wrong. We cannot escape temptation, but we can choose to think and do what is right. 

How do you prepare yourself to fight temptation? 

Passing the Baton: 

Be a fighter! Do not let the enemy steal your sparkle, but live an attractive lifestyle, pointing people to Christ. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, please fill me afresh with your Holy Spirit to strengthen my heart to be self- controlled and to say “No” to all temptations that lead me away from you. Amen.

Scriptures: Isaiah 61:1, Matthew 25:35-36, Matthew 25:40

A Voice for the Voiceless 

The Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim freedom to the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners. (Isaiah 61:1)

Rebecca wrote an article for a Christian magazine, 

“It is our job to get as close to Jesus as possible… love the Lord your God with all your heart…so His Holy Spirit can work through 
us to reveal Jesus to others. We are Christ’s beacons or ambassadors for the lost and hurting souls in this broken world. We are His eyes, ears, feet and voice.” 

Rebecca’s heart for the hurting carries on through her journals, 

“I want to be a friend and a voice for the voiceless–slaves, prisoners, the poor, the unborn children, widows and orphans… I saw a circle of compassion and no-one was standing on the outside… we are to stand with those who hurt… we belong to one another.” 

The seeds of compassion were sown in Rebecca’s heart when, as a young girl, she helped care for people in need with her parents in central London. On one occasion, she was moved to tears when she saw a photo of young girls who were held captive in a cage. She never forgot them and, as an adult, she joined the fight to stop human trafficking.

She also sponsored a young child, raised money for international justice, visited the poor and organized mission trips around the world to share the good news of Jesus Christ. 

Selah

For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me… Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me. (Matthew 25:35-36 and 40) 

What breaks your heart? Does it ache for things that break God’s heart? 

Passing the Baton: 

Be a voice for the voiceless and be Jesus’ hands and feet to the poor and suffering. 

Prayer: 

Oh God! Please break my heart with the things that break your heart and give me the wisdom to know what to do and the courage to carry it through with loving kindness and truth. Amen

Scriptures: Ephesians 2:10, 1 Corinthians 15:10

Calling 

For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. (Ephesians 2:10, NLT)

Praying and meditating on God’s word, Rebecca felt His heart for all the people who are “Lost,” and His calling for her to be a witness to the youth. Shortly after, He graciously opened the door for her to be the National Director of Alpha Youth. 

“I’m privileged to support youth pastors and work with teen leaders and teen groups.” 

“Every day I pray that God would save more souls to be with Him for eternity… Lord I feel so weak – please help me to glorify you in this new role.” 

“One day every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. But until that day there is a work to do and a harvest waiting. “

“I feel God is pouring out His Spirit like never before; who’s in for the one who paid it all? I am! Speaking to myself as I know many have seen this before me, but it’s time to stand up! To speak up! Be a voice to our generation of the Good News of our Savior Jesus Christ.” 

I stop and weep in awe of Rebecca’s beautiful and challenging words, written one year before she completed her race and was called home to Heaven. She was obedient to God’s calling and to the plan He had prepared for her long ago. The seeds she sowed continue to bear fruit in the lives of people today. 

Selah

By the grace of God, I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. (1 Corinthians 15:10) 

You are God’s masterpiece, and He will guide you into the plans and purposes He has prepared for you. As you step courageously into God’s calling on your life, by His grace, He will equip you with everything you need to carry out His will and bring glory to His name.

Are you, “in for the one who paid it all?” 

Passing the Baton: 

Be courageous in running the race He has called you to. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that I am your masterpiece and that you have qualified me, and will give me the grace, to do the work you have called me to do. I commit myself to your calling for my life. Amen.

Scriptures: John 11:33-35, Psalms 126:5-6

Tears 

When Jesus saw her weeping… Jesus wept. (John 11:33 and 35)

I sense and feel in this season (and my life) God is working; God speaks to me in the tears. He is revealing deeper things to me and at times it is difficult to bear… I have felt a deep, deep pain in my heart for families who are suffering from the loss of loved ones, causing me to cry very much as I pray… let me bring hope and healing to show who Jesus Christ is, to bring His love.” 

Rebecca’s tears for her brother were heart-changing. They became tears of compassion for others. Her tear-stained journals overflow with the cry of her heart. There is a fragrance of beauty about her journals, for Rebecca was weeping for lost and broken people. Tears, offered to God to be used for His glory. 

“Let me bring you glory in my valley, my valley of tears.”

Rebecca journeyed on through her valley. As she wept for her brother, and for every hurting person, she sensed God was weeping too, for every lost and broken soul. Just as Jesus wept, Rebecca was learning that true compassion is to comfort and suffer with others.

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. This promise was a great comfort to me. He really does collect our tears.”

Selah

Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them. (Psalm 126:5-6) 

Tears are a gift from God, allowing you to share heart to heart with Him. God is close to the broken-hearted. Allow the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort to change your heart. With the comfort you have received, you will learn to comfort others. In this place of brokenness, He will renew your strength and guide you along the best path for your life, filled with His love and joy. What do you feel God is saying to you through your tears?

Passing the Baton: 

Ask God to give you His heart for the “Lost” and for all who are suffering. 

Prayer: 

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the gift of tears. You know and understand me and I ask you to please use every one of my tears to bring you glory. Thank you for being the God of all comfort, and please help and strengthen me to comfort others with the comfort you have given to me. Amen.

Scriptures: Proverbs 4:23, Ephesians 5:31-32

Romantic Love 

Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life. (Proverbs 4:23, HCSB)

With a hard romantic choice to be made, Rebecca wrote, 

“This morning, I’m asking God to give me strength and grace, to make the right choice, even if it’s painful… Dear God, to be fully free in you, I want to lay my life down and say, I give you my dreams, my hopes, my desires, my heart.” 

Rebecca had told me that God had spoken to her in regards to a relationship,“If He has spoken, will He not fulfill it?” She was going to trust God’s promises. 

“What is my passion? What is the one thing? To draw near to God with my whole heart and He will draw near to me.”

Rebecca was always going to put Jesus first and she knew He was the only one that would ever be able to fill her heart. But, she did believe God had a soul mate for her, writing,

“There is one my soul is tied to, since the beginning of time God arranged such a perfect union, no person can thwart God’s perfect plan. I will wait; I will trust. He knows me better than anyone. He is my helper and I am his forever, hearts as one (she drew a heart).” 

I believe the spirit is always working to bring the bride of Christ to her bridegroom. Scripture tells us that the Church is the bride of Christ, and He is our bridegroom! At Rebecca’s memorial, God mercifully carried me through with a vision of her as a beautiful bride meeting her bridegroom, with Alex close by.

Selah

For this reason, a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. This is a profound mystery but I am talking about Christ and the church. (Ephesians 5:31-32) 

One day, we will all meet our Heavenly bridegroom, our Savior, who is perfect in every way. He is the one we should desire above all others. He is the only one who fully completes and satisfies the deepest longing of our soul. Jesus is the only perfect one who will never let us down.

What is your passion? What is your one thing?

Passing the Baton: 

Guard your heart because out of it flows the wellspring of life. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord Jesus, I adore you. Thank you for your love for me. You are the lover of my soul and my heart rejoices in you. Help me to trust you and to allow you to take full possession of my heart. 

My beloved is mine and I am His, and His banner over me is love. Amen.

Scriptures: Proverbs 31:25, Proverbs 17:22

Laughter 

She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. (Proverbs 31:25)

Where did Rebecca’s strength come from? 

“It comes from within, as I seek God with all my heart…” 

Rather like running in a race, Rebecca would seek God with expectancy and eager anticipation as she read and meditated over her Bible, prayed and worshiped God. It was while she was waiting on God that she clothed herself with strength. 

Rebecca’s lifestyle demonstrated the triumph of the grace of God in every area of her life and she endured with such dignity. Because she knew and trusted God, she was free to laugh at the days to come. Rebecca was definitely not afraid, writing,

“I don’t even know what tomorrow holds, I just know God holds me and that’s enough”

“Enjoy life to the full! This morning I enjoyed just being together with friends, talking, laughing enjoying each other and listening to beautiful music by Bach…” 

“Today has been another gift from God, precious and joyful, I see God has put great blessings into my life: love, joy, peace, friends and family…” 

Rebecca’s best friends from her high school in London sent us a beautiful and thoughtful gift. They had painted a picture of a tree, and its branches were laden with precious memories of Rebecca. One of them read, “Laughing so hard it made her eyes water!” That was our Rebecca, she laughed like she meant it – such an infectious laugh!

Selah

A cheerful heart is good medicine. (Proverbs 17:22) 

Laughter and our sense of humor are gifts from God. There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under Heaven, a time to weep and a time to laugh.

Are you free enough to laugh at the days to come? Who could you bless with some fun and laughter today?

Passing the Baton: 

Receive strength in your quiet time with God, and laugh at the days to come. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord Jesus, thank you so much for the gift of laughter that refreshes my soul and brings light and lightness to my day. 

Help me to bring laughter and joy to those you bring into my life. 

Amen.

Scriptures: Psalms 91:11, Hebrews 1:14

Angels 

For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. (Psalm 91:11, NLT)

Rebecca was very adventurous (taking after her Dad), and I always prayed for God’s protection over her. However, after Rebecca went home to Heaven, I was faced with the question, “Do I really believe in God’s promise to protect us wherever we go?” 

Through the overwhelming suffering of a mother’s broken heart, God answered my question and revealed to me many spiritual realities of things we don’t normally see. Rebecca’s guardian angels did protect her throughout her life and every moment of her life was laid out before a single day had passed (Psalm 139:16). Although I can hardly breathe for sorrow and I miss my girl and my boy, I can say with full assurance, May 8th 2014 was the day that God had planned to call Rebecca home. He did not leave her or forsake her; He ordered her guardian angels to carry her safely home and into His arms. 

Rebecca’s own words on angels are comforting to me and speak of her absolute faith and trust in God. 

“God has His Heavenly armies encamped around us…The Lord has promised to watch out for me and protect me, my future is secure in Him. Thinking to myself, I am faced with a strange set of realities, one sees only about a third of what is actually going on! The realities of the spiritual world are evident and active here on Earth. God is always working for His perfect plan and purpose.”

Rebecca chose, Same Kind of Different as Me, for her book club. 

“I was so moved reading, Same Kind of Different as Me, a story of redemption that touched my heart. I felt I’d like to buy a painting of, “Angels in Disguise” by the homeless man in the story.”

In the days after Rebecca went home, remembering how touched she had been by the story, I would stare with tear filled eyes at the painting, “Angels in Disguise.” I thought about Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane before his crucifixion. Yielding to His Father’s will, an angel appeared to Him and strengthened Him. I prayed that God would also strengthen me.

Selah

Angels are only servants – spirits sent to care for people who will inherit salvation. (Hebrews 1:14, NLT) 

God’s angels are sent to protect you and one day bring you safely home, where you will hear the voice of many angels numbering thousands upon thousands worshiping and singing, “Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise.” What is God illuminating to you from this message?

Passing the Baton: 

Run courageously, knowing that God has ordered His angels to protect you. 

Prayer: 

Heavenly Father, thank you for creating angels and the many ways they help and look after us. I’m grateful for how they protect and help me on my journey. Amen.

Scriptures: Colossians 3:1-2, Matthew 6:20-21

Heaven 

Set your sights on the realities of Heaven… Think about the things of Heaven not the things of Earth. (Colossians 3:1-2, NLT)

The Bible teaches that Heaven is our true home, while our time on Earth is only temporary. When someone you love dies, you do begin to wonder about the things of Heaven. Rebecca had this very experience, when her brother Alex went home. Part of her heart went with him, and knowing this was not the end of the story, she chose to meditate on the Bible’s truth about Heaven. Rebecca wrote, 

“I have family in Heaven and on Earth…”

“Live for the treasures of Heaven, don’t worry about uncertainties…”

An expression of her strong faith was when she would say to me, “I wonder what Alex is doing now?” In Heaven, all mysteries will be revealed, but until then, we agreed that Alex is enjoying the glory of God in his true home. He has joined the great cloud of witnesses and is worshiping Jesus in a perfect place; a place free of pain, perfect peace and joy and pleasures for evermore. 

Rebecca loved to paint and, as a gift, she painted the beautiful bouquet of roses that her Dad bought me for our wedding anniversary. Written above one of the roses was Ecclesiastes 3:11.

“God has made everything beautiful in its time. He has planted eternity in the human heart.” This verse means more to me than words can say because, only a month later my heart was broken again when my precious Rebecca was also called home to Heaven!

I like to imagine that Alex was waiting to give her a welcome home hug, caught up in joy, worshiping God with family, friends and heroes of the faith. One day we will all be together again, with no one missing.

Selah

Store up for yourselves treasures in heaven… for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. (Matthew 6:20-21) 

The Bible teaches that how we live our lives on Earth will be rewarded in Heaven. Relative to eternity, we have so few years to live out God’s unique calling for us and if we miss that, we miss everything. Run the rest of your life with perseverance, fixing your eyes on Jesus. The most important thing is that by welcoming Jesus into your heart, you know you’re going to Heaven.

What can you do differently today to start investing in Heaven?

Passing the Baton: 

Store up treasure in Heaven by being faithful to His calling. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord Jesus, thank you that you will make all things beautiful in its time and that you have set eternity in my heart. You are the only one that can satisfy my soul and please help me to run the race you have marked out for me. Amen.